On February 18th, we celebrated Lydia’s 4th Birthday! (Really?! She is 4?!?! I feel like people who have 4 year olds have their stuff more together then I do. Aren’t I still in college and the only thing I am worrying about it is quietly sipping my coffee in a coffee shop while I “study” and wait to see if some boy (JNP) is going to call me?! Anyway…) We decided to do a princess party and Lydia was SO excited! She couldn’t wait to invite friends from school and our neighborhood and I couldn’t wait to throw this party for her. I’m not sure why, but I always get anxious and nervous getting ready for parties. I don’t know if it is the perfectionist in me, or (probably) my pride. And as the week went by, it was like my mind was in a million places of the million things I needed to get done. What I really needed was a big dose of reality and truth and My Heavenly Father was gracious enough to give it to me. What I really needed was this truth: What is my daughter going to think about her party if her mom is running around like a crazy person with a horrible attitude because she is so stressed out?! She is going to think that what her mom is doing for her is a big pain, an inconvenience…NOT a JOY. THAT was the truth of my attitude, and my heart, and it was yucky and I didn’t like it. I am thankful for second chances and for the grace to learn that lesson while my children are young! I never want my children to think that the special things I do for them are an inconvenience or a chore. I desire a joyful (not stressful) heart! I am thankful for lessons learned as I stand at my kitchen sink. (I think that is the place My Father speaks to me!). Anyway, onto the party!!
After a couple days of vacation, it’s hard to get back into the swing of things (anyone with me?!). This week felt a little overwhelming in terms of housework, laundry, etc. I have really gotten used to (and have started finding really relaxing) things like hanging my clothes on the line and washing all of our dishes by hand, but it’s weeks like these where the clothes seem never ending and the dishes constantly pile up that I really miss the conveniences of a dryer and dishwasher. (Hopefully I don’t sound complainy 🙂 just sharing a little of what’s on my mind.)
Sorry this post is so late in coming out! But, better late then never, right? The last part of the week we took an amazing trip to a Gorge in our country. We were so excited to go as a family and take the kids. It was technically a business research trip for Jay, but he was nice enough to let us tag along. Maybe if I get a chance this week, I will do a bonus post with just pictures from that trip. Once we got over the Puke trip there, it was such an amazing place and we stayed in a rustic “castle” as Lydia called it. It was FREEZING without any heat, but worth every second. Part of the joy for me was watching Lydia’s language ability really flourish as she played with a friend there. She was understanding and communicating in a way I have not seen from her before. We are praising our Father for this fruit in her life!